No longer will I fear an *emotional relapse* ~ This is my term for when I have moments of feeling as if I will never truly be able to "move forward" because I will fall back and allow myself to be engulfed up by the cloud of negative emotions or allowing my actions to be fueled by fear. I demand, deserve and desire the intense peace of controlling all that I can and leaving what I cannot to the universe. Without a tear, without sadness. Or if I am to cry or feel sadness, I am the watcher and not driven by these feelings.